Mike Tyson

I think I resemble Mike Tyson.

"The best decision I ever made was to retire from boxing. Because I don't have any stress. I'm pretty simple. I like the person I am now more than I did. I don't like 'Iron Mike' -- I like Mike Tyson."

Tyson lived in the Youngstown area during his heyday and said the tour will start there because he's still wanted and comfortable there.

"I love the rain," he remarked of the former steel town's typically dreary weather. "The rain to me is like sun to some people. It may sound pretty morbid. That's why I stayed here so long."

He recently trained in a makeshift ring at a Las Vegas hotel to help pay off his debt.

"I truly hate fighting," Tyson told The Associated Press in August. "I've got a bad taste in my mouth."

It was that experience though that made him realize people still want to see him.

His goal on the tour, he said, is to entertain people and to enjoy boxing for a change.

"I want to have fun because during my boxing career I was too damn serious. That was my problem, I took myself too serious,"

About Working Like an Ant

I feel like I've been working like an ant. I don't have the nerve to stand up for myself. I hate what I do. I guess I haven't really accepted the fact that I am disposable.

I feel like shit. Last night, I had a dream that I was in prison for murder, and I was about to get executed. I was really unconscious at the time, and I really thought that I was gonna die. I remember that I regretted killing someone not for the guilt but because I was about to get executed while I still wanted to live.

I didn't know that I was so worthless. I'm doing shit that I don't like just to make money.

I wonder if it's better to go back to the factory job. That way, I would feel like I have a better excuse to stop trying. I guess I have to give up certain things in order to gain something else.

I want to stop trying.

Sweet Home Hamburg

I really really really liked Hamburg.

People were so nice and seemed to be more respectful of others compared to the U.S. People looked healthier. Everyone is so clean. The transportation system runs very smooth. The city was very clean. People are more environmentally conscious. They don't leash their dogs, but the dogs are very well behaved. I liked the food. I liked the beer. The girls are a lot prettier than in the U.S.

I really really liked Hamburg. I want to get a job at Airbus and live there.

Beer

Played soccer yesterday with the same group of people from last week. I played pretty bad. I couldn't think fast enough. Went to the guy's place in Lake in the Hills afterwards. On the way over there, I noticed that gas is really cheap in the area. I stopped at a gas station and filled up my van. As I was driving away, I heard this loud noise and immediately realized that I forgot to take the pump nozzle out of my van. I guess it's designed to just disconnect when something like that happens. I felt like a big dumb bitch.

Met the plant scientist girl and her roommate at a breakfast place. I told her that I'll bring back a beer mug from Oktoberfest. I hope I won't forget. I think she's very smart and funny.

A fortune cookie said that "You will trael far and side, both pleasure and business." I have a bad feeling about this trip.

Logic Is Irrelevant

I started looking for a different job. I'm wasting my time counting screws all day. Had a phone interview with a company in the East Coast for some UAV gig. Nothing happened though...

I'm in a big fight with this arrogant mother fucker at work.

Also, I'm going to Germany for a week Monday. I was gonna tell my boss that I'm looking for another job, but I haven't. I should soon, but it's really awkward with a bunch of stuffs going on right now. I'll tell him when I come back from this trip. Hopefully I'll have something lined up by then.

Timed to the Stars

Went to the Elgin Historical Museum yesterday. I guess wind mill manufacturing was a big thing here in the past. It was a bit weird because I've been looking for a job in the wind turbine industry for sometime now. I wished if they still had their business here.

Played soccer yesterday with some people in Hoffman Estates. They weren't as skilled as my soccer team. It felt a bit weird playing like that because I'm used to playing at certain level that's challenging for me. Maybe I'm better at playing soccer than I think. I know that there are plenty of people who are better than me. It just felt a bit weird because I've been losing games for so long.

It's starting to get colder. I want to find a new job. There are a lot of things that aren't really going too well. I think I'm becoming more indifferent about what goes on around me as I get older.

Old Dogs

I've been doing CAD stuff all week at work. probably worked about 60hrs this week. I'm still not done. I talked to a recruiter from a company in Wichita. I want to get out of this city. I wanna make more money. I don't like what I do now.

Went to the glider field today (Saturday). I've only flown 14 times this year. I'm not that good at flying as I was last year. I was gonna paint a segmented circle on the roof of the hangar but changed my mind and went up with another member in the L-23. 47min.

The guy I flew with told me that he's considering not flying anymore because of his health problems. He's been flying since WWII. Has about 30,000 hrs (3.42 years) logged. I've never thought about days like that when I have to give up something that I've lived with for so long. I will have to go through something like that when I get older.