Stroke of Fate

I thought about going to South Africa next year.

I think about what I lack as a person.
I was right about being desperate to gain knowledge.
I can see now why so many engineers never get any experience to do anything worthwhile.
It's hard to really grasp the consequences of the choices we make as an engineer.

I knew that I needed more experience and knowledge. Now I'm just useless. I knew what I needed, but I didn't get it.

I spent too much time worrying about shit that other people were worried about.

It don't mean shit now what I knew back then.

I'm just useless.