Goal

We have never won a game in the league. But we are not the dead bottom team because there is another team that hasn't won any game and has worse goal differential than us.

We played against each other on the last game of the season yesterday. We lost 4-3. It's not the end of the season because there's a playoff. Which we get to play in, even though we were the worst team in the league.

It's snowing outside.

I'm really lost as to where I'm going in life. I know that I want to work in the wind energy industry. I don't know how to get there. I don't know how far I am from getting there. I know which directions to take. For the past year and a half after getting out of school, I had to settle for some other jobs just to get by. I feel like I got too used to not finding things that I want. I don't really have the urgency to do what I want.

New Place

I've been looking for a place in Oak Park recently. I found a place today that looked pretty good with OK price range. It seems like a pretty snobby town which I fucking hate, but I'm gonna try to move in next weekend. But there's a problem... All these places want one year lease. I'm still looking for another job. It's unlikely that I'll find another aviation or wind energy job in the Chicago area.

I started doing some structural substantiation work. I've been working there as an application engineer for half a year, and they finally gave me a slightly engineering related work to do. This is really bad in terms of job experience. I'm gonna get as much as I can out of this structural analysis and find another job.

Wrong Choice

I didn't get the job. I want to escape from who I am. But I didn't succeed.

We lost 8-0 this Saturday against the first placed team. I played goalie for the last ten minutes. I made a huge fool of myself. I'm feeling down. I don't want to play no more. I feel like shit. I'm just gonna try to forget about it for the rest of the week. I'll decide what to do next Saturday.

Swimmng in the dark

I hate hippies.

I feel like I've been swimming in the dark. Nervous about some stuffs that's going on in my life. I don't know where I'm going with this shit.

If the other company offers me the job, I'll take it.

Another Interview

I had another interview this Friday. I wasn't expecting much, but it seemed like a good fit compared to the job that I have now. It's more of an engineering position. One of the person that I talked to said that 75% of engineering is paperworks, but the 25% of the actual engineering that keeps us coming back to work. I guess that's how it is everywhere. The job I have now is about 100% paperworks though.

I looked around for some apartments in Oak Park after the interview, and I liked the place. But it's a bit high class for my taste. I'm not sure about moving now that I might switch to another job in a few weeks. My car is on the verge of breaking down.