Coelacanth

I got nothing in mind.

I'll be without income in about a month or so.
I don't know if I can make it through this time. I haven't looked for any jobs in the past few weeks.
I have no sense of urgency.

I don't have any plans.
I don't have much will to prove my existence.
I'm convinced that I'm useless.

I wonder what was the point of everything that I'd done up to now.