Escape Plan

So...
I waited too long to get a job.
I calculated some stuffs and found out that I gotta wait till Christmas to move out.

I made a huge mistake.

I should've moved out when I still had the money.

Fuck.

Give me an email if you know of anyone who has a cheap room for rent in Elgin.

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Unusual

Work is fine.

Money is a problem.
I don't have enough money to move out.

Snowed yesterday.
I was in Elgin.
I thought the city was really beautiful with the snow and frozen river.

I've been feeling pretty down recently.

It's been pretty fucking cold.

But I have to wait for another 2 or 3 weeks before I can move out.

I'm So Fucking Happy Right Now

I called the security company and withdrew my application.
It's a job for some old people who never broke the law.
I called couple of places, and I got a job at a place where they assemble circuit boards.
Lots of acids and hazardous stuffs.
Manual labor job.
$9.50/hr

The guys I talked to were so honest about the job.
He told me the hazards, the company history, and everything.
I even told him that I'll work for 4months at least, but I might find a job after that.
But the guy was very understanding.

I start work tomorrow.

I only have 700 buck in my bank account.
I am pretty fucking happy that I found this job.

Windy Night

A mouse ate the bait, but escaped the trap (spring loaded type).
I was impressed by his/her will to survive.

I don't know why people look for a purpose in life.
I've never had one.
But I can see how it might simplify things if you have something like that.

People Are Strange

I didn't know wonderbread was a brand name.

I should've had a pet here while I was unemployed.
Never had a pet and always wanted one.

But I don't have the money to do that anymore.

So sad.

"If you're rich and stupid, I guarantee you'll be a success in this country" - Leon

State of Mind

Not everyone is evil.
Not everyone is good.

This is not heaven.
This is not hell.

Greedy Capitalist Pigs

I'm gonna start working as a security guard in about two weeks.
Results of my criminal background report pending...

I am wasting time.
I am wasting life.

All this time I spend on looking for a job and shit, just a huge fucking waste of time.

I want to work on wind turbines and shit, and now I'm reading security officer manuals.

Makes me feel pretty fucking shitty.

One thing that I'd like to make clear...
I'm not gonna work just so some rich mother fuckers get richer and richer.

CircleOfLife

I've decided to take the security guard job.
I have to work 10, 11 hrs a day on the weekends, but I don't work Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday.
$10/hr.
It's a good schedule because it'll give me time to take interviews on the weekdays.

And...
The HR manager was so cool.
She was extremely smart.

One bad thing about this job is that it's gonna take about a week or two until I actually start working.

Had a call from a recruiter about an engineering job in Dayton, Ohio.
As usual, needed citizenship.

More Waiting

Well, I didn't go to the construction job place.
I decided to wait till Wednesday.
Sent a thank-you letter to the wind farm company.

Lots of people tell me to just take any jobs.
Leon was telling me to just go for the money.
He really has a very strong personality... Or a huge weirdo.
I guess engineering jobs are pretty interchangeable...
But I know that I'm pretty bad at doing things that I'm not interested in.

I have an interview for a security guard position in Rockford tomorrow.

Time Is Up

I'm gonna take the construction job Monday morning.
This is not what I expected when I started going to school.
Or even when I got out of school.

It's hard to give up the idea of working with airplanes now because I've always thought that I'll be working on aerodynamics for the last 7 years.

Who knows what will happen now.

Start Over

I'm gonna take the construction job on Monday.
I'm not sure what happens after that.

Not what I had planned when I started going to school.
But I'm not sure what I wanted to do neither.

I guess I was a bit too optimistic about finding a job when I got out of school.

I don't know what I'll end up doing for living in a few years.
Never planned to be a construction worker for the rest of my life.
I guess I'll look into something else.

I don't have much money neither.
I guess it's a good time to start over.

Movies

I've decided to take the job at the roof construction job...
If I don't get the wind turbine job...

I guess it's ok to wait for another week.
I have to wait till I get my first pay check to move out anyways.
But that's it.

No more waiting after this one.
I need to make money.
Hopefully I'll get to save some and go find another job in couple of months.

It feels good that I'm making my own decisions.
And I'm making mistakes.
I think it's more important than following the rules all the time.
It feels like I'm doing something important.

Broke

I'm pretty much out of money.
I have about 1200 bucks altogether.

Need a job immediately.